Down the Rabbit-Hole

I took my first Ritalin pill at 7 this morning. I feel -- I don't know, keyed up, but in a good, non heart-palpitating, non-anxious way. Energized. I have actually WORKED and FOCUSED for the first time without it feeling like my brain is going to ooze out my ears, which is amazing. I mean, I can actually go for more than 20 minutes (and after that first 20 minutes it's every 5) without reading stuff on the internet or walking around.

And I FINISH things. And when I take something out, I put it away immediately. And my thoughts are less scrambly-wambly. Although concentrating is still a little tough. I am going to take this dose for three more days and then up it to two, and see what happens.

Oh, and my pupils are dilated so I look like I'm on drugs. Which, technically, I am.